I am certain Ryan thought of this father heaps today. I told him this morning as we left for the airport that his daddy would be proud of him. Ryan knows that and has shared of his dad's smile many times when telling the story of himself choosing to attend seminary training.
I will forever love these fathers regardless of how many days I get to spend in their presence.
These men have instilled passion, wisdom, drive,
truth, and joy into Ryan and I and I am thankful.I am thankful also, for our LORD, that has enable
use to call him daddy and be embrace in his
tender care and soul provision when we chose
to slow down and lean into him. I am in awe and
stilled again by how often I throw temper tantrums
in the presence of the holy; I am in awe by how he
chooses to quiet me. I am in awe of his consistent
love pursuit for his creation.
This morning Ryan left for Chaplain training in NC. I spoke with him this evening and he arrived safe and ready. I left him to ironing his uniform and getting a good nights rest; traveling through multiple time zones can be rough. He will be in NC for a month.
Ryan has been reminding me that I am probably better prepared than I think for future deployments but I find myself going through more tissues than what I view is reasonable. It is hard to be away from someone you love. Ryan is going to make an amazing Navy Chaplain. I am calmly reminded when I set aside my worries and ask him to share his passion and reason and calling for this ministry again. I believe we are in the exact spot that we need to be currently.
As for myself, I am seeking employment. I recently moved to the SF Bay Area from the Denver Metro. I had been working in the Higher Education industry. I am growing antsy as I am reminded that the results of this waiting season will be good. I am also learning about community by slowing down to attempt to invest in the relationships I have from WI, MN, and CO before plunging headfirst into numerous CA connections. The process has been filling with a lot of waiting and checking my motives; lonely moments and an aching appetite for deep community next door. I must learn to appreciate people and seasons. I must learn to love people for who they are rather than the convenience and timing of them filling my extroverted senses to a satisfactory level.
The wedding planning is mostly done as all of the larger stuff has been completed. Ryan has contributed time, energy and effort; perhaps more than I have. The Mountain Man whose career requires him to be clean-shaven really is the most incredible groom a bride could ask for.
Today, after taking Ryan to the airport I dabbed my tearful eyes like a pro and went with Claire (my roommate) to the Mt. Tam, Mountain Play, "Music Man." The performance was wonderful and the weather was toasty. We each had two rounds of snow cones in our party of four.
The day was eventful. I laughed, I cried. I experienced deep joy and sorrowful grief. Emotions continued to run through my existence until now... I am stilled and reminded to be centered, to relive positive memories, to determine not to exasperate the rotten memories, to let go of the crud that I would like to be able to control but I can't. So be it.
Ryan has been reminding me that I am probably better prepared than I think for future deployments but I find myself going through more tissues than what I view is reasonable. It is hard to be away from someone you love. Ryan is going to make an amazing Navy Chaplain. I am calmly reminded when I set aside my worries and ask him to share his passion and reason and calling for this ministry again. I believe we are in the exact spot that we need to be currently.
As for myself, I am seeking employment. I recently moved to the SF Bay Area from the Denver Metro. I had been working in the Higher Education industry. I am growing antsy as I am reminded that the results of this waiting season will be good. I am also learning about community by slowing down to attempt to invest in the relationships I have from WI, MN, and CO before plunging headfirst into numerous CA connections. The process has been filling with a lot of waiting and checking my motives; lonely moments and an aching appetite for deep community next door. I must learn to appreciate people and seasons. I must learn to love people for who they are rather than the convenience and timing of them filling my extroverted senses to a satisfactory level.
The wedding planning is mostly done as all of the larger stuff has been completed. Ryan has contributed time, energy and effort; perhaps more than I have. The Mountain Man whose career requires him to be clean-shaven really is the most incredible groom a bride could ask for.
Today, after taking Ryan to the airport I dabbed my tearful eyes like a pro and went with Claire (my roommate) to the Mt. Tam, Mountain Play, "Music Man." The performance was wonderful and the weather was toasty. We each had two rounds of snow cones in our party of four.
The day was eventful. I laughed, I cried. I experienced deep joy and sorrowful grief. Emotions continued to run through my existence until now... I am stilled and reminded to be centered, to relive positive memories, to determine not to exasperate the rotten memories, to let go of the crud that I would like to be able to control but I can't. So be it.
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